So, I saw you last night. And....idk...but, every time I saw you after this recent incidence, left me with a bad vibe. And the things don't get any better. It's getting worse day by day. I can see it, just don't have the power to feel it. I know you're dying every single day. And it's a complete hassle to live one more. And all these ignites the fire within me, and I'm burning. It's a slow poisonous death I'm dying every moment. Every time I open that box of cards, the fragrance makes me go crazy. I feel like to go to you with a bottle of Appy Fizz and some popcorn, hug you hard till I collapse & gently pass away in your lap. But instead, I fall flat on my rooftop. If you're thinking it's a life I always wanted. Well, no, you're wrong. I never wanted to lose you. Never wanted to lose the meaning of my life. Never wanted a life where I just pass around clueless. Never wanted to lose against ego......but I had to! At the end of each day, this little 3 lettered word makes me feel dead. But I'm still breathing, so I'm fine. That's all I gotta do. Live....and die a thousand deaths every day before I finally perish into the hells.